here are the videos on 26/8.
and vicki...what OH BABY lOlx.

people making a foOl of themselves =P:

mood:

ate @ Nihon Mura today (if i din get the name wrong) @ the cathay.
they offer 99cents sushi! woOhoOs. and it was not bad for such a cheap rate..
love the (real) crabmeat sashimi yum yums.
but i was disappointed with the tuna (specifically had to order from the chef) perhaps cos there wasn't much taste.

watched Wall-E.
it wasn't a movie i was eager to watch but because Ronald says he wants to so alright then.
in the end, he felt the movie was boring & i thought it was quite oOkie. in fact it was another nice movie by Disney-Pixar~
1/3 of the movie hadn't had dialogue (cos robots can't really communicate much)..but you began to see the bigger fuller picture & start to appreciate the life you have now instead of craving for that robotic future.

that humans made robots (unintentionally) to become better than themselves & robots attempt to control the world of the humans.
well you can say that's the negative consequence of our future.
and there is Wall-E, the primitive robot sort of saving the human race, making them realize they mustn't get too caught up with technological advancments but rather knowing & returning to their roots (going back to Earth).

since when machines ever had feelings?
apparently these robots too.
then again, will machines be able to evolve on their own in the future?

artificial intelligence.
and with all the portrayals of robots movies who have feelings and everything, it's quite impossible?
are we able to input into artificial beings the ability to feel & have (not mimick) emotions?
won't we be higher beings then? hmmm.

Ratings: 7.2/10
OH BTW, i love the short clip before the movie called Presto!! HAHA. it was super cute & funny!
Ratings: 8.7/10

will post the videos on 26/8 the next time!

mood:

updates for the past few days.
there was the SG film lecture where vicki kept making fun of sumpah orang minyak (curse of the oily man) but i'm glad we (vicki me farhan shai) ALL ALL in the same tut! yays. tt means presentation & final proj togetherrrrrr~

celebrated nadya & sx's bdae ytd after nadya's lecture.
not much of a surprise hahas.
and the hotpot standard has dwindled terribly oh mans.
i miss those days when we had hotpot for 1st sem...the spread was so delightful~
but i had beer & i was happy (but the hotpot din really suit the beer anymore) mayb cos the mala one was too far away from me soO i din had much chances to eat from there.

today had my 1st tutorial of all my 5 mods.
i toOk alone sObx sobx but it wasn't a terrible tut becos i LOVE the tutor AHHHHH. he's such an interesting person & wad a great 1st impression he makes!
got the class luffing like every 5-10 mins & i cannot get the image of him waving the Labour Party flag off my head lOlx & his rendition of "We have a vision for tomorrow, JUST BELIEVE...JUST BELIEVE" lOlx.

he calls those terms (like deviance, hierachy of credibility) that sociology uses "sexy" hahas.
and tell us to "bring sexy back' when we write essays for our exam hahahas.

and i love his black pointy shoes hOhOx.

edited my previous post.
those who read it already,check out those words in BROWN.

AND TAG PEOPLE! *strangles board*

copy from anita's post (not plagiarize cos i put her name here!) lOlx.
mine is a thank you post~
doing this @ 2am so forgive me if it's sloppy work but i try to capture the nicest pics here!

one reason i'm writing this now is inspiration + i'll forget alot by tml. oh well, here they gO:

my words are little but pictures, they tell the stories & experiences we've been through~

1st things that came to mind: teasing, gay gorilla, pon 1 day of school, paranormal pics of gigi

These are my 1st 3 mths pals, the people that i constantly had in my mind throughout my 2 years in JC.
to Sha: thanks for always dropping by in msn/ tag altho we're nt very close

Weitai & Gigi: you made my days go wild...i seriously love you all to bits & i missed the times when we teased gigi till he went mad. the many tricks we played on gigi and the last day when me & weitai had to confess to our crushes to move on with our lives lOlx. i still rmb-ed the movie 'Robots' that we caught together~
1st things that came to mind: gossiping sessions, 'updates', scandals, booze (thanks to QQ!)
My JC friends, my jie-meis!
to jessie: whom i din take alot of photos with (because so camera shy!) you've been my no.1 friend in class and even when we went to work together; the obstacles we faced & the times we cried because of work politics & how much we had with Alvin playing badminton & just having lunch together. Work was tough but work was fun too because of you & alvin.
to qq, jeslin & kitson: YES. we shared @#$% memories in judo; happy times, sad times, tough times but most of them were happy. how odd it is that kitson's inside an all girls clique but how well we get along with one another like peanut & butter lOlx. yeaps even if we meet again, it won't be awkward or strange because the sense of connection is still there!!!!

qinqi used to go gaga over gary, jeslin over seng yong the cow HAHA & me...AIYA dumb lar hahaha. i think i had like 2 or 3? *whistles*

you all were the best pals i had in my JC life~

my ex-bf of 1yr 20 months, Yuda/'piggy'.
the 1st person i fell in love with for real & who shared with me ups & downs in my JC, judo & work life.
who was a guy who took pains to surprise me (appearing @ my door with a bouquet of roses) & gave me heartfelt presents (like the exercept he wrote about the little prince & the rose which touched me, the cranes folded for our 1 year, the stars he folded for my xmas present, the ring he wore without fail everyday)
who taught me how to love & treat the next person i love better.
who allowed me to move on to my next phase in life~

The GLC. biggest clique of 11 i had in my entire life oh wow.
1st things that came to mind: seaview, steamboat, badminton, "We're studious & hardworking besides being good loOking" cheer.

I cannot forget the mugging session we had, the time we went to ikea for dinner, the v-day together (thanks pals!), badminton sessions, visit to sx's uncle's house, CNY reunion steamboat dinner...

Anita: we din really tok much but only recently till flyer we got to know each other more. most of our memorable memories ironically are not with GLC but @ the flyer (soup spoon~~~) and your terrible emo life ack. lOlx.

Shawn: the guy who sort of disappeared hahas. but without you there, a piece of jigsaw will be missing~

UI: the angsty girl i remember who cannot stand eating lunch alone just like me!

Nadya: always there when she can & YES always there to call me a bimbo/ xiaO jie.

Aloy: oh wth this guy. he's there to pick on my xiao-jieness too & expects the world to worship him hahaha. how odd till today i found that we can never get tired of his bhb-ness

JW: my 1st friend in orientation lOlx & being miss nice.

SX: mr. nice & uncle agony, the only guy friend whom i've cried so long & so hard to. i turn to him because i felt he could see thing objectively (am i still right about this?) and for the few attempts @ jogging LOL.

Vicki: crappy, extraordinary with wacky thoughts & ideas

Farhan: stop calling me "Whiny girl" lar! aiyO.

Taffy: looks innocent & mr. nicetie but actually horribly wrong (the typical sg guy) wahaa.

My Flyer Friends.
1st things that came to mind: management milo, the deck, food from baggage room, popeyes

Ranjani Miss Grouchy: afternoon teas. stomach rambles. fooooood. hahaha pretty much sums up alot!

Puga: haha wonder why we came up with pugamon, jasmine tea & curry puff but i know she's always tickled to bits & a few times played the pokemon song over the walkie lol! i was touched when i kept grumbling i'll worry they'll get into trouble but all she told me was "you want to work @ delta right? that's enough so shut up & we'll handle the rest."
and yes her teeny high pitched voice.

Marina: i dun have a picture of her but there's a couple of worthy memories i shared with her. when she let me used her comp to chat with R (and when she imitated my 'handphone dropping expression' when she realised who i used her comp to talk to) her grouchiness which she vented on me during our 1/2 hr break after a few hours of scary nite in the ops room & then treating me to popeyes after that hahahas. her no nonsense attitude at work. the time when i said "marina sucks" in the intercom & the technician scolded me for saying the operator sucks HAHA. and her sleepy, drowsy laid back tone.

Hannah: one of my 1st flyer friends who taught me alot of things & who cannot stand me at times lOlx.

Cynthia: AWWW. she is nice. if i'm a guy, i'll go after her. she's the only girl who scolds vulgarities in such a funny way & shouts for no apparent reason.

Clarence: he always disturbs me and actually is a Mr. Nice too! who cheers me up by being more irritating & funny. and sorry, i always got him mixed up with my brother on msn & sms hahaha!
who sneaks up behind me when i'm discreetly sending sms, who came all the way to the deck just to deliver my orange juice amidst his 1 hr break~

Emmey: i LOVE emmey because he's like a model father & it's always fun having him around at work. crazy & high at times, serious at times & cheeky at times. i still rmb the jiggle he did & the stupid "Tsing Tao Beer" thing argh.

the things he told me about his family, about his previous jobs & him secretly wanting me to stay where he's in charge. the number of times i write "Emmey sucks/ emmey yucks" on the ops room panels.

Raj: the no.1 jerk. the ungentlemen. the photo spoiler. and yes, i still missed working with you. bleahX there u have it. but despite all these, you make my noon shifts enjoyable~

Yonghan/ Frankie: dear frankie, i had so much to write here about you until i had almost nothing to write here. up till now, i wish you're still in sg, still @ the flyer, within reach where i can see you, hear you, laugh at/ with you because altho the time knowing you was short, it was memorable and laughable. sometimes the things i say/ do/ encounter still remind me of you. YOU ARE AN IDIOT.

whatever.i'm still going to write things about you: i remember the 1st time i talked to you on a horrible busy saturday & i said you're always smiling. you rmb-ed what i said to you because it made you realize a few things about yourself @ work~ the last time i really worked with you @ turnstile where i drew emo circles like the monkey, when you told me we should sing korean songs and you sang da zhang jin's theme song (hoo la la~) OMG and when i kicked up a fuss & said i'm not going to the entrance but i'm going to work with you because the tour guide made me extremely mad about unvalidated tix. the times when i went into the male changing room with you for fun. when i just looked @ you & i couldn't stop laughing (& you did the same, that's how you came up with "you're so laughable" line) & all your other stupid lines like funnily funny... @ kbOx when you sang every single Chinese song & swayed from side to side & did dramatic actions & screamed at the top of your lungs. and when you slap my thighs towards the end of the session cos you were simply too high. the numerous number of pictures we took tgt & crazily calling you 'my bf/ my frankie' until everyone (like Jean & Melody ahha) seriously think i'm in love with you LOL.

Last but not least:
Ronald whose pic is not inside because everyone knows how you look like: u are a brother, mother, father, ah beng, ah pek, friend, punching bag, innocent bear, HB, & scarily at times someone that reminds me of myself.

i know that once you see that huge portion on yonghan's part you'll give the -_-''' face. and that's what i like about you; that you keep me in your mind & heart every time. the times when I screamed (for real) & cried (for real) and when I emo & tell you alot of negative things (when after a few hours i'm okie but end up making you feeling not okie), i get guilty & apologetic. you said you tend to take my crying, screaming, emoness, jealousy, the way i spite you as forms of love and amidst of your sadness, you felt happiness because it showed how much you mean to me. And they're all very true.

and i won't compare: don't give me roses or stuff toys that will only take up nothing but space on my bed nor seeing what my ex did, appear with flowers @ my door steps (you're lousy @ surprises come on i can see through you, try harder HAHA.)
just like you, i appreciate you the way you are (frank, honest, spiteful, bold)

no one said falling in love is easy nor is it full of always cotton candy & bliss.
it's like a packet of jelly beans of assorted flavours but just like a jelly bean, love is still a sweet.

Ok lar. here's your photo:
Because that's not the usual stoic, unyielding Ronald but the comical, cam-whore, photo spoiler one (the one that was moulded into thanks to Jasmine heEx. =)

i know i didn't write much but these memories, they're all still etched in my head.

thank you all for making my journey of life worthwhile.

If you like/ have listened to Estelle's American Boy, hear this:

Sam Sparro's live version of American Boy:
he's damn cute & sings well! and so what if he's gay bleahX.

watched 12 Lotus today.
dunno why i suddenly wanna catch it.

OMG. it was a very very very very sad movie..
everything is mostly in hokkien (and a bit of mandrin) because it's a getai like muscial & oh damn, the hokkien songs were damn damn damn emOtional.

i dun really like hokkien as a lang.
but the songs were really touching & the story toO.
didn't watch 881 altho it was said that 12 Lotus follows the same theme & characters..wells, after watching it, bet you don't see another 881.

i guess he did quite well for this film?
not your typical hollywood tearjerker but one that packs in with our local flavour & nostalgia.
so it's really authentic in these ways & closer to home.

and there's this line that keeps going round the movie
"without pain, there won't be love...without love, there won't be pain"
it pretty sums up everything in life when we feel emotionally hurt (sad/ angry/ frustrated/ depressed)..
that it's always because we have love for something/ someone can it hurt us just as bad.

and of course, there's the symbol of the Guan Yin throughout the show that apparently raises some doubts about faith and religion?hmmm..

but then again, the stupid bear yawned like 10 times. lOlx.
maybe it's too deep or melancholic for his moOd.

Ratings: 7/10

an advert for QQ's SIM-RMIT party on 6th Sept; everyone is invited priced @ $20 with 1 drink @ Zouk.

Take a look @ this:

mood:

this is another random post.

i din get all my top 5 slots.
i attend 4 tutorials alone.
my nm class today was about philosophy & art @#$%.
it was an awkward whereby the lecturer feels he's nt getting much response & i feel bad for him & still not responding.

i am so passive lOlx.

jianwei was emo-ing all the way.
i'm glad i'm nt emo today or else we can both die together lOlx.
whatever it is, i can't just tell him "ya wallow in sorrow, drown & die can't care less about you..you deserve it!!!"
nahx. he's still my flabby friend~

but i still hate you for sacking yourself!!!!! there.

ain't doing much readings either.
except 1 today which took me almost 1 hr cos i was multi-tasking.
had no heart to read my 2nd one zZZ...
i'm so terrible.
i have 1 mod that doesn't require reading (so means only 4 mods of readings) & i'm still whining.

and i promise to read the news everyday for my mass media mod but i'm still not abiding by it.
and i'm supposed to keep a food diary for my food mod but i haven bought the mini notebook i intended to.

on a happy note, i gained 2kg!! wahahahaha.
on a bad note, dey're mostly tummy flabs arghhhhhh.
that's cos of all the afternoOn teas i had when i was working. oh man seriously...all i could rmb was popeyes after the briefing haha.

when ranjani was around before she quit, it was 'afternoon tea' written all over her face and then suddenly i felt like eating too.

but becos 2kg= flabs, it's nt much of a consolation too.
i shld exercise.
i keep postponing my squash sport (like swearing once i get someone who noes squash, i'll play like 3 times a week. ain't happening argh.)
and running zZz..where's sx!

i'm still nt sleeping. why.
someone motivate me to sleep early.

talked to beverly on the way home and i was surprised her r/s lasted for 4 yrs (dey got attached when she was sec 4)..
before that they talked on the phone for almost 1 year without meeting up much.
like wow.

it feels like a blissful lil life there.
not envious but it shows that it's possible and real enough for r/s to last long long long...

that's when i realized i'm still immature myself.
there's still alot of things i need to learn and understand (like really get it & take an almost neutral stand).
i wonder does it come around just like inspiration or it needs me to slowly realise & appreciate the process~

mood:

i spent $70 on 3 bOoks.
zZZz...and on things that i guess i'll never be able to sell @ 2nd hand sObx.
all my past sem coursepacks..seems like i can sell to garang guni le..no one needs them anymOre! wahHhhHHh.

am so glad my SS and NM need nO coursepacks/text.
or else i'll be a goner. well at least i'm better off than lit majOrs =P lOlx.

still not in the mood to read readings (unless i HAVE to...like my nm readings due on wed & i haven got time tomorrrow nite to digest them~)
nahX. dey seem so innocently little anyways compared to soci readings lOlx.

i guess after 1 year of reading readings, dey dun daunt me anymOre! *puts up a brave front*

i asked frankie to entertain me & here's what he came up with:
《单杠的故事》

before that get your hanyu pinyin right first!
单: dan1
杠:gang4
荡: dang4
钢: gang1
弹: dan4

ok....GO!

单杠荡单杠
单杠荡钢弹
钢弹荡单杠
钢弹杠上单杠
单杠荡到钢弹
单杠与钢弹杠上
杠上只有钢弹杠单杠
荡单杠杠钢弹
钢弹钢弹荡单杠

HAHAHA. forget about reciting fast.
can't even make past just reading out loud.

haven't been spending quality time with people.
haven't been spending quality time with studies.
haven't been spending time with myself.

haven't been at peace with myself.

but for that last 1/2 hr, i did feel a sense of calmness when i watched "The Fountain" properly (without other distractions). it's such a ___ movie, really don't know how to call it.
if you haven't, try watching it.
it's a movie that lets you reflect alot and pulls you away from the material life which i've been drowning myself in endlessly.

been tied up. been busy. been thinking unnecessarily.
and when you start to see the bigger picture, you find whatever you've been pondering can all vanish in that few moments.
i like that feeling.

maybe that's why monks/ nuns don't mind staying the way they are.
lOlx.

mood:

went back to work for 2 days after 1 week of school.
it was as if time had stopped & my 3 days in school were just a dream.
because i feel as if nothing's changed & the last time i worked (before this week) felt as tho they happened the day before.

which i think is quite a consoling thing? hmmm.

worked @ turnstile for the 2 days.
and MAN, saturday was MADNESS.
we had a total of 8,800+ pax coming in & it was non stop activity from 6pm till closing time 10.15pm ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

i almost had no time to breathe!
all i could rmb was jus scanning, scanning, running up & down to bring signature cocktails.
never felt tired/ hungry/ wanted to stop.

it was hell for a normal saturday LOL.

but i'm glad i'm not working like i did during the holidays.
it'll be scarily draining & i kinda like going to school toO~

What i had for lunch @ Hot Tomato Express (PS) with Ronald: American Beef Stew!
Wanted to try this the 1st time i went with the GLC but dey didn't have tomato olive rice. same thing happened this time..dey shld've just strike tt permanently off the list.

The stew itself was alright (a lil bland for me) but the ingredients were GREAT. The beef chunks, potatoes & carrots (i hardly eat carrots); gobbled them all except for some tendons which i seriously couldn't swallow.

altho the stew was slightly bland, add the white rice & it was an appetizing meal..yummy!

Ratings: 7/10. i cannot forget the taste of the potatoes & carrots!

And this: Stack of unvalidated basic vouchers (cannot be scanned through).
OMG you can play uno with it lOlx! add on these = we'll get perhaps 9000 pax!

mood:

had my nm class ytd.
alone. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
actually it wasn't like what i described.
in actual fact, there was no prob sitting alone, thinking alone because almost everyone else is doing the same thing lOlx.

it was a class of 50 pple only (which explains why there's only 2 tut slots!)
and we had a lecture (including video clips) of 1 hr 40mins.
there're 2 lecturers.
there's also mention about a trip to the museum some day to appreciate paintings.
and of course, the final sem project (curation).

it wasn't boring nor was it extremely difficult.
it reminds me of yet another soci class. haha.
NO i'm not crazy. but the minute the state, institutions, media were mentioned...soci has found its own spot.

then again, virtually everything is this world is related to Sociology because Sociology partly is also the study of the society and its individuals~

what can be deemed Sociology?
- study of society
- study of the r/s between society and individual
- study of how issues in the society can impact on the indiv. in his/her daily life & vice versa (because the indiv. is an active agent)
- study of how institutions can influence the life of the indiv. (and vice versa)
- using the different perspectives (functionalism, conflict, feminist, symbolic interactionism etc.) to view all these issues.
- questioning the motives/ agenda of the bigger world that serves to tweak the indiv's mind in many different ways.

so the minute the lecture brought in institutions, we can see that art serves the purpose of perhaps the state: to deliver certain messages and to steer the public in a certain direction that the state desires.

one word to sum it up: propaganda.

which is why only certain art are showcased, certain pieces are featured and only a few are given the highlights.

the same goes for the media: video clips, advertising, tv serials etc.

hmmm.

mood:

i spent almost 12 hours out today!
altho there was no brain work, lots of giggling & going out & msn chat, it's DRAINING.
omg. what is my body made of? marshmallows?!?

the food lecture was boring.
but the content of whatever we're gonna do is interesting mhMM.
and it ended in 45mins @#$%.

mass media despite all the threat mail, threat ivle ('i dun care/ i dun give a damn/ i do things my own way' kind of outline), he was all in all mild (not like wild in his writings) & funnily critical at times.

so i can kinda heave a sigh of relief.
i tot i'm getting lecturer from HELL. phew phew!
but half of me wanted that hellish lecturer who disses because it'll be too boring.

altho he did tell us to shut up once & said we have the human rights to tell that loud person to keep quiet lOlx.

met ronald after everything! yay~~~
we ended up @ kfc (yes scream/ go 'omg, xiao jie is going to kfc on her date!!') but i was happy with the choice.
i'm sick of eating popeyes!!!
kfc chicken seems so much better all of a sudden..
but i feel the whipped potato has dipped in standards (& in size too hmpf hmpf).

still have 1 more lecture to go.
please go well. please please please~

mood:

school today was.....alrite. lolx.
and Farhan & Vicki couldn't stand my whininess.
but i have reasons:
tt's cos my comp carn go MSN again! and i was pissed cos i can't go online & i can't bump into the people i wanna bump.

and tt i had bread and mocha freeze for lunch (tt's $6+ bucks) and am still not full.during break, i told farhan i wanted waffles (i dunno how whiny is tt lOlx) if we wanted anything to eat and then spend another $2 on my fav yong tau foO after our lecture.

taffy didn't wanna go with wif me to co-op
and vicki was talking abt meeting friends.
in the end vicki went with me anyways (thanks!!!) & was soOn dozing off.

wasted trip to co-op again.
argh. the problem was just a check on tt tiny box under some settings & everything is solved. i feel like a comp. idiot lOlx.

frankie says my day is very happening & tt my life is so interesting. hahhas.
if he was weather, he'll be the sun & i'll be the puffy clouds with a dark tinge at times.

speaking of interesting, i hope this sem will be.
am astounded by the kind of modules i take this sem.
im like leaning towards the artsy side.

there's the Singapore Film mod (wow TS! not my style)
counter: ahem..it's a Singapore Studies module & SS is compulsory.
which isn't so bad..at least dey dun go into the technical details.

then i was reading my IVLE workbin.
clicked on my New Media mod & O.O for 3 secs.

" Students with a creative, risk-taking and a multi-disciplinary mind are welcome. This course is difficult as it has a complex and new for most students theoretical component ("aesthetics", as well as "interactivity", among others), as well as a large portion is practical independet component." --> oOkie...

"You are welcome, especially if you are pro-active and outspoken, love arts and technology, as well as read a lot.

If you have a particular talent, let us know, and we will try to showcase it during lectures." --> ermmmm oOkkkieeeess...*this is getting weird*

"The Final Project will involve curating and documenting a show of a variety of artworks." --> !!! WAD. curating?!?! show?!? -_-'''

lOlx. all of a sudden it's nt NM but Museum & Art Appreciation.

at the end of this, people will conclude this is a whiny post.
alrite whatever. i'll just whine the night away~ lOlx.

mood:

hi. my love.
i'm done foOling arnd.
i'm coming back to you as of tomorrow.

well actually not quite.
i'm still rather unsettled.
i still do not wish to be tied down by commitments.
but i cannot delay going back, can i?
the more i delay, the more i won't want to go back right?

gahhhh.
and i kept my promise to you that i'll still continue to love you.
i believe my love for you is still strong (except for that horrible email that lecturer sent to me made me waver a bit.)

i don't want to delay either.
if not, i'll soon forget what it's like to have loved you which is kinda sad.
because when you & me are together, i had so much things to say to everybody (i remember i kept talking about deviance to my friend the whole journey home).
and when people ask " are you satisfied/ happy?" or "what can you do in future?"
i can only answer "I don't know but i love sociology."

and when i cried when your results let me down, i realized how much more terrible the feeling was compared to studying something you don't care/ have no passion for.

i still believe you're still the one.
(ok i noe i said the similar thing to LAK 1201 but that was like a few weeks of fleeting moments..shHHhh.)

on another note:
to my teddy bear.
don't feel sad that i'm going back to school.
and that i'll spend lesser time with you.

i'll still spend the same amount of time as i've been doing so.
and that you said even if i'm in school, it doesn't change things much anyway.
don let that hope waver in you because when you always say that, you make me believe too.

i don't wish to go pessimistic again.
from the time i said 'yes', i never became as pessimistic as before.
please don't let it be your turn this time.

it had been my Achilles' heel & i don't want that the 2nd time.

::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
anyways!
whose free to lunch with me~~~~~~ (striking shawn off the list)
i am free for lunch:
Mon- before 12pm
Tues- before 12pm/ 2pm-4pm
Wed- before 12/ after 2 pm

mood:

i still remembered the few weeks when we fretted about not having a job.
when we searched through the net & papers.
when we told each other what findings we had.
when we went for some of the interviews & recruit services together.
and then we went for outings on the way.
when we cursed about the Flyer not responding to us.

my parents couldn't wait to see me out of the house.
i was dying of boredom.
i was stressed about dying of boredom.

and after the Flyer hired me, everything went from cruise ship to speedbOat.
now here i am, as i type, my vacation is 95% gone.
LOL. what a big irony.

i wished i could go on more outings.
i didn't see my parents as often (in fact they complained about this now)
i stressed about not having the chance to die of boredom lOlx.
i sleep @ 1+ am and wake up @ noon.
sometimes i can't sleep much and still turn up for work..
i tested how far i could go and finally, it was shown on my face!

that's when i started to take things slowly...
then i realized it's already towards the end.
i have sort of 'fully utilized' my 3 mths vacation.

i am not complaining.
because i feel my vacation was well spent.
most of the time, it was fun.
work is fun.

i made friends that are really worth keeping (sometimes i wish i can just pack them and still be able to see them almost everyday when i start school).
i knew people that are worth knowing.
i opened up more to strangers.
and last but not the least: i found Ronald!

i get upset.
i get happy.
i get stressed.
i get excited.
i get pissed.
i get high.
i get tickled.

no life <--- some may say because during this vacation, my life revolves around work mainly. but this kind of no life is quite the kind of life that's enjoyable & fulfilling @ the same time.

things that made you mad and at some times made you happy are those that matter to you the most.
at least that's how i judge what i place close to my heart.
the same thing that made me the happiest and the angriest/ saddest is one that i treasure alot.

so i could say my work does make me feel like this.
perhaps that's why i find it to be fulfilling & am attached to it even till now.
if today is my last day, i dunno how else to feel.
but i never agreed upon it because i'll still want to fill up the schedule for the next few weeks to come.

i still wanna feel there's no end to this.
that i'll still be part of it & we'll keep going.
i'll still be attached to this & we'll still keep building our friendships.

now you ask me why won't i say 'quit'?
These are the reasons why.

"What will you call this?"
it's called love.

mood:

my last N shift today.
it was a lucky last N shift cos i had emmey & clarence to chat & make fun with.
altho the deck was my favourite place & puga's there, my mood still didn't suit the deck in the morning.

but i was luffing so hard until i went really hungry @ 1+pm & couldn't do anything else anymore.

Clarence the kidnapper who kept grabbing me & threatened to put me in the bin!
my ah pek who never fails to make me laugh & my day =). he is really a doting father~

other pics:

Emmey's childish idea. lOlx!
Ronald Sr.'s fashion: too good for Milan lOlx!

didn't plan to go out after work.
but i gave in in the end & went out to have dinner with ronald.
i realized how much i really hurt him & was really guilty as he told me wad happened @ work.
but it also made me feel touched that the few sentences i said could make him go bonkers.
altho i was really heartbroken when he said all those nasty things, i was the still the selfish one who didn't accept/ whistle away his countless apologies.

we were both selfish & spiteful people.

i am sorry too.
and i forgive you when you told me what you went through.
that's how i really was able to understand from your perspective.

you also made me realize it wasn't that bad as i imagined after i said everything to you.
and that i shouldn't be afraid to slowly emerge out of my closet.
still we have different perspectives but i'm glad you're able to keep a lookout for me at times.

was advised not to think about the negative side & the 'what ifs' but focused on why i still wouldn't let you go.
for that moment, my mind was a blank & my future was a blank.
and that's how i knew i couldn't let go no matter how open i am & how hard i try to imagine.

that there will be no one to voice my heart out at.
no one to scream at.
no one to smile secretly with.
no one who can read my mind & guess quite a number of my thoughts.
no one to show me i can be really immature.
no one to say to how it feels right being with you right down to just looking at you solely.

everything about you is beautiful and genuine.

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so it's Shokudo pizza for dinner!
SeafoOd pizza: so-so but rather little seafoOd & prawns were dry
Ratings: 5/10
Unagi & Mushroom Pizza: omg omg omg. the 1st bite was wow. i totally fell in love with it. the unagi was so flavoured & it blends really well with the melted cheese, shrooms and thin crust.

Ratings: 8/10 definitely my fave.


Then it was dessert @ Ice Monster.
hmm. too overrated? the fruits were really fresh (& i love the sweetness of the mangoes coupled with the tangy sour feeling of the kiwis) but sherbet was just alright.

Ratings: 6.7/10

somehow i feel the unsettleness feeling is starting to subside.
until i saw this bloOdy email given by the bloOdy lecturer warning me & telling me wad to expect for my soci mass media mod!

it's like "if you can't make the cut, don't bother" type of email -_-'''
i realized wad a blunder i made when i'm not the newspaper person.
argh.

the stress is already shoved into your face before you even get the feel of the module yourself.
practical.

i dunno why i feel sad.
i dunno why i feel angry.
i dunno why i cried when i feel angry even.
i dunno why my heart hurt & i was badly trying to pick up the pieces again.

i dunno.
i thought ignorance is bliss.
maybe it is sometimes.
when you're nt ignorant, you cry for moments.
and then is it sunshine after the rain?

all i know is that i'm a prideful person.
and i bear grudges.
maybe that's why i feel so mad and hateful.

and the same goes for anyone who shares the same personal traits as me.

i remember hard.
but i forget hard too.

mood:

so irritated.
until i feel like throwing the whole planning book away & wish it'll just miraculously come up with a fantastic timetable.

i'm still torn between taking mods with friends & having to go skoo everyday (even for jus 2 hrs..ok sucks). OR taking most of the mods on my own (die to get a free day & still can go school for only 2 hrs on some weeks).

PLUS. my exam dates are further apart if i chose the 2nd option.

anita neo can sense that i'm tempted to cross over to the other side =P.

screw UEs.
dey gave me so much trouble. becos of that 1 hr tutorial (that i dun even noe whether i'll get that mod) that i have to put other tutorials on that day so i dun have to go to school for 1 hr only!

am deadbeat now too.
the sooner i get the modules i want, the better.
plsssssss.

mood:
went to southern ridges today after catching The Mummy: Tomb of the Dragon Emperor.

haha. it was tougher and hotter and more bothering than i expected.
the highest & furthest walk i've done!
ronald was being mr. grouchy when he realised the amt of steps we had to climb @ Marang Trail.
and he panted while he talked hahahas. i on the other hand was not showing signs of fatigue *whistles*

and when we finally reached Faber Point, we realized how high we've walked! OMG.
we decided to go to Henderson Waves (cos that's part of my plan) but we ended up walking down down down all the way DOWN and found ourselves not @ Henderson Waves...ahHhhh.
that's when mr grouchy --> mr angsty & whiny but i could only luff @ his antics. lOlx.

i must applaud myself for my stamina and grouchiness level @ this point. well done, jasmine!

we climbed back the bloOdy steps & walked the correct route this time.
Henderson Waves! We stayed there for 2 hrs becos:
a) it was just too beautiful to walk on
b) hope to catch the sunset
c) we could just laze there forever and almost no one will give a damn (except the security guard who kept appearing in front of us lOlx.)

a few times, i almost dozed off.
wind was caressing my face. amidst the birds above & the traffic 70meteres below, i could feel a sense of tranquility.
and to be there with someone who matters to you, kinda blissful + literally being on top of the world~

there was even a wedding couple taking shots there. romantic but -_-''' cos it's already tiring to walk in casual attire and shoes; much less gowns, suits, heels and leather shoes.

anyhow, it was a reward for me after surviving the treacherous steps!
too tired to walk back soO we took cable car!

altho we didn't make it to the hilltop walk, it was an experience through and through and nope, i'm not going there again hahas.
i'm too sloth for that.

some shots:

mood:

this is like the 1st time in 10 days i'm @ home @ nite!
that means 9 nites of coming home late & sleeping @ wee hours of the nite~

and i'm happy being at home now.
i ate hot pipping home cooked dinner by mum after a long and tiring week.
and i felt soO hungry & satisfied when we went out for dim sum lunch.
it was like real foOd (hahah seems as if i've been eating alien foOd).

i guess i jus missed chinese food freshly dished out frm the wok/ oven.

and i'm glad i'm nt going to work for the next 2 days!
thanks to jianwei and ronald for taking over my shift.
have to settle my module stuff + take a break.

ronald says i seriously looked zoned out.

now i can STARE at cors all day~
and gO out tml~ wheeEeeeeeeee~

mood:

i feel dejected and rejected.
didn't get what i want and have to worry for my next few rounds of bidding.
anyhow it's a relief..no more 6-8pm time slOts.
but 1 less thing to look forward to for the rest of the year.

argh argh argh. to sum it all up.
glad that the next round is 4 Aug. for now i can just whiz my time away...

finally worked full shift with ronald today!
ICs were very nice to put us on breaks tgt heehee.
altho we nv stay at 1 position tgt for long.

chester was the nonsense one who pulled back pple's turnstile so that he can pass thru them.
haha. i admit i did that last time when alfian's around.
he wanted to try every type of ticket...
when it comes to the signature cocktail ones, i was staring @ him & then he burst out laughing HAHA. sly guy.
and at 1 time we went in the turnstile tgt becOs the pax were coming.

nobody cared about kenny haha when he was level 2 ic for 1/2 hr.
nobody replied to his walkie lOlx.

i'll dread the coming days when level 3 & baggage room will be manned by us again.
we have lesser people to go for breaks tgt & lesser to mingle around with. argh.
anyhow, opening them again will save us less hassle and less chaOs like what we've been facing at times these days.

ahhh.
Ahhhhhh.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

i must be mad.
and i'm still waiting in anxiety while i wasted all that i had for the past 2 sems on u.
everyone thinks i'm crazy. i think so myself too.

from the interest --> frustration --> anxiety.
i wonder how long my feelings for you can last.
and that if we're ever destined to be together.
even if we are, i had to use alot of effort to convince myself.
not to mention time spent + hard work + continued interest even when the tough times come.

u're so in demand.
so hard to please.
here i am vying for the last few positions (mayb even last) just for you every freaking mon & thurs 6-8pm (OMG. that bloody timeslot for the 3rd sem).

why am i so persistent?
mayb cos my eyes can no longer look elsewhere. (almost everything else disinterests me)

i swear that even this sem does not work out, i'll try again next year!
ARGHHHH.<-- that's basically how much anguish u caused me.

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aslany
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eunice/ braces!
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vanessa chue
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jiaying
wan wen
shawn
vicki
jianwei
choon peng
jiun kit/ scuter
weitai
Felicia Chin
samantha
yonghan/ frankie
yanling/ hippo dinosaur
taffy
vivien
aloysius
hikoto
jason

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